I can't stretch this enough, but I abhor what I'm about to do. I really, really do. In my entire lj ~life~ I have never nor thought I would have to do this. But alas, the time has come.

I'm going on ~hiatus~.

Earlier, I was thinking I'd bounce back and get out of my funk and be be like before. Then my mom dropped some bombshells on me and now, I can't do with all that and trying to keep up with this. I have tremendous amount of family stuff going on. Like, I'm going back to texas in roughly 2 weeks and hopefully going on FMLA at work so when I do return, I'll still have my job. I wasn't even going to post this until I was in the shower 30 minutes ago and everything hit me and I started crying. I really wish I could carry on right now, but I can't deal right now. My attention and focus is else where and I'm not going to try and act like it isn't. 

I knew one of the things going on, but then my mom told me about 2 other things, and those are the ones that pushed me over, in a manner of speaking. If you want to know more, feel free to message me. =/

I'm really, really sorry guys. I hate doing this.

Love you all and I'll miss you. 

I don't take part in anything Valentine's day related. And it's not because I'm a bitter Mary and single. I just don't believe in the "holiday".

I'm not a girly girl but I do find some things romantic but celebrating a day dedicated to telling the person you love that you love them, on a day that millions of other people are doing the exact same thing? No thanks.

I'd rather have someone take a day that means nothing and make it a special night to me than doing it on a night when we're "supposed" to because someone decided it was a good idea to remind people that we need a holiday to let the people we love know that we do love them. 

I cried.


I bawled my fucking eyes out.


I'm so fucking happy, I can't put it into WORDS. I'm just isghiuewgawpnhwfbnwjkfbnlafjhbwubn ufbhewuignbw;p rn. Srsly.


Off to work, nothing can bring me down. =D


(i see new icons in my future)